For my friends in the “Spoonie,” or chronic illness, community…
God who rides the roller coaster of life with us,
There are times we endure a flare of our subpar health.
Sometimes the flare lasts a day or an hour.
But during that time we experience our own agony-
Our own hell on earth.
Twinges and spasms and aches and overcoming pains keep us silent and still
When all we want to do is move.
Just last night our bodies were cooperating,
And today they revolt against us.
God, our bodies have driven our lives to the land of unpredictability.
We no longer have “spoons” or battery power or energy to keep moving throughout this day-
But we’ll keep pushing as long as we need.
So we turn to you.
If you can refill our cup so that we feel strong again, fill the cup.
If you can rearrange our schedule so that we don’t feel guilty about resting, rearrange the schedule with a touch of your grace.
If all you can do is sit with us in our pain, we are grateful for your presence.
We look forward to the time when our batteries are at 100% again and we can move about our days.