God of the infinite who abides in the finite,
You ask me to keep writing, keep writing, keep writing.
But does it really matter?
Does anyone really read my material?
Does it make a difference in anyone’s life?
Does anyone want to forward it?
Is my ego in the way?
The words flow freely at times
And other times, they are immobile as in clogged pipe.
So why do I bother to write when I feel like the words aren’t there
And they matter little?
Set my sometimes-too-large and sometimes-too-small ego to the side.
Help me realize that I’m a vessel for holy words and not a blogging prima donna,
And that there will be times when my work creates change in the world,
There will be times when they make no difference,
And there are times when it causes controversy.
Ignite the spiritual fire within my being to live into my call
With creativity and courage.
God of all spaces and times,
Pursue me if it looks as if I will quit,
If writings are rejected,
And I feel like my calling makes no difference.
Remind me each day that I use these gifts to glorify you,
To create a justice-filled world,
And to take the droplets of love and fill them into the gaps of our fractured world. Amen.